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Aug. 18th, 2005 07:30 pm
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Yeah so here's an update for ya.

i feel shitty. i've been sick for a few days. my tummy yells at me whenever i eat, so i haven't really been eating. which isn't a bad thing, in theory, but i guess is bad anyway. >>

ihate the ending to FMA. somebody better sub that movie soon. and wathcing the whole series is really the only thing from my lengthy summer to-do list that i finished. which is depressing.

i'm losing interest in gaia, but i dont think i'll ever quit cuz it's fun, and there are so many people i'd probly not get to talk to again if i quit.

i have 150 pages of my psych book to read plus 15 pages on it to write, a bunch of french assignments, and 3 long books to read. in about 3 weeks. my classes suck cuz there's no one in them. i'm going to college in virginia. i have a lot of writing to do for scholarships for essays. fuck life. someone remind me to bitch about new haven later. >.o i dont have the time now.

ferdy's going to ohio in 2 days. i'll have to amuse myself for a week. wtf.

i've become re-obsessed with the french romeo & juliette musical since i found ALL the songs on limewire. i just wish i could get the show itself to dl. ms kerwin said i could borrow her dvd to copy, but that would take forever since i'd have to use my grandfather's computer [why does HE have a dvd burner and we dont?!] to rip it from hers, then burn it to dvd-rs. but it's 2 discs. oi. i dont think i could stay at their house for that long. but the songs are sad. and easily understandable. someone on gaia told me my french was mazaing for not being my first language. yay.

i still want french ygo manga. but it would cost a fortune to buy 1-31, and whatever else is out, and have it shipped from florida or canada or france or something. why the hell does it suck so much here?

work sucks as usual. overbearing gay men who still are only part time after 25 years and think they're the manager do not make for a happy flea or a happy work environment. and what the hell, he calls me flea! what. the hell?!

james & ferdy make work fun though.

i still dont see the point of myspace.

my room is kinda clean-ish. i cleaned out the garage a few weeks ago when we bought the guitar. the next week i cleaned out my entire closet and got rid of so much crap. then i cleaned my room itself, but ti still needs work.

i;m learning to play nirvana's "come as you are" on guitar. i want to learn the rage beat dammit!

christ, man, this is my last year of high school. like, wtf. my childhood is out the window... i'll be 18 in 6 months and 10 days. .-. i've done nothing significant with my life and i'm moving on to a new stage and shit but... it's kinda depressing. i keep saying i cant wait to go to college, and i really cant, but omg. college. when i was little i never thought i'd be this old or going to college or whatever. i was amazed by people who were this old. i remember in like, 7th grade 2 guys from school asked me out in like a week and i was like "hey mom, what would you say if..." and she's like "no, you're not dating until youre 16" and i was like "what the fuck thats so far away!" and im 17 now and couldn't care less about guys... i wish tehre were hot guys around. or girls. i wish i could definitely figure out what my "sexual orientation" is. >> why does life suck so much?

haha, my mom asked me last night if i ever went back to fictionised.net. @.@ no, but ari found me. does that count? *waves to ari <3*

oh christ. i hope i dont have a lot of classes with ariana this year. that would make life suck more. i cant believe freshman year i was like "yeah im totally gona be valedictorian" and now im #3, behind fucking airhead barbie and a pothead. i dont care that im not #1, i really honestly dont whether or not people believe me. it just pisses me off that THEY are the top 2. "oh no, i dont want people to think i'm smart! ewwwww" well then what the fuck, dont act like you know everything!

mmm i still wana work on impaws. maybe ill do that later insterad of reading psych. this weekend im definitely going to finish my psych book and the writing, and probly the tehology book too. then i can read native son and the grapes of wrath each in a week, and ill be all set. my french homework wont take any time at all. oh christ i dont want to go back to school. im really honestly dreading this year and i dont know why. i've never been happy about going back to school after summer vaca but this time i just dont want to go back at all. ugh.

fucking graduation is the same weekend as anime boston. they better have the ceremony somewhere cool instead of the fucking churchor i will be PISSED. to miss anime boston for sitting in a church for a few hours? it's an ugly church, it's small, and while i respect other people's religions and such, i dont believe in a god of any kind and i really dont want something as "important" as graduation in a fucking church. i wanted to be halloween sora too, which would be aweosme and fun to make but argh.

i;ve given up on trying to make my own prom dress. im just going to try to desgin it and find someone who will make it. and lose about40 pounds. ugh god im gross. and i just had this conversation with ferdy. XD

okay, im done bitchign for now. i have to go to s&s to get coffee and dog food and shit that means i;ll have to deal with danny. what the fucking hell. maybe ill do that 2moro beofre i start, and ill get kerri to do it for me instead. so yeah. imma go visit ferdy and get gas and coffee and stuff, then come home and give in and work on impaws.

i need to find kata's LJ...

screw looking decent. im going to s&s in my pajamas. ask me if i give a damn.

why does blog-writing always make me pissy/apathetic?
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=D Gaahhhhhhhh, Johnny Depp. <3 That movie is fucking awesome. Haha, 'fucking.' Ferdy knows what i'm talking about. Mmmmyeah. And dude, the guy runs/lives in a candy factory. Can you imagine the possibilities?! @.@

Moving on to something more uh... wholesome? i got a guitar. Yays. it's a Peavey something or other. Came in a box with all the other guitar shit you need. We went to New Hampshire to see this place called America's Stonehenge. [OHMIGAWD LOOK! IT'S A BUNCH OF ROCKS!] it was okay... the main site was like, half old ancient shit and half the remains of a guy's house. o.O The tour map thing was like "#7 - Sacraficial Altar. #8 - X's Fireplace." And i'm like "uh... yeah..." But there was astronomical stones set up too. What i thought was cool was the fact that wherever the stones were, the path was clear so you could see the sun/moon/whatever, but i'm realizing now that people probably cleared them quite recently so they could see what was going on. >>;

Anyway, guitar: So we're driving through Salem looking for this restaurant we went to before, and we drive by a Daddy's Junky Music. All of a sudden my father stops short and he's like "Are they really getting a guitar?" and Mom's like "Eventually" and he just pulled in. He figured it was better to buy it in New Hampshire [where there's no sales tax] than "paying taxes to the Republic." Haha, you're funny. NOT. Now, since we started talking about getting a guitar, i've been saying we're getting an electric guitar for various reasons that Katie and P3ffy gave me, and the fact that i'm just not playing an acoustic. So the guy in the store is like "What kind do you want? Acoustic r electirc?" and i said electric but as usual i was ignored. Joe goes "Uh, we don't know yet. What's better to learn on?" and after the guy gave a speech about it, Joe turns to me & Sean and says "Hey, you should be asking these questions, not me!" At which point i flipped out on him because not only did i say what we wanted, the guy had repeated what i've been saying about why we should get an electric. So yeah. i got glared at by mom for asking the guy if they had the guitar in black, since the only one on the floor was an ugly ass color called "Sunburst" Eww.

Aaanyway, after that we went to lunch and i got yelled at a million more times for bitching at Joe for being the uncivilized idiot that he is. Then we came home and i cleaned the fucking garage. i'm still not sure why. it's been bugging me forever that it was so cluttered and messy and gross, and i was planning on doing it eventually cuz Mom's been saying we'll have to practice down there cuz of the noise [>>], so i was gona do it to drop a not-so-subtle hint. But then we got the guitar and that killed that. it was so gross down there. There was a giant spider and it had like, egg sacs in its web hanging off the door and ew. i almost quit when i saw it. But 2.5 hours later i was disgusting, the garage was clean, and the trash in the driveway took up more space than the car. Yay.

i can't wait til i'm 18. There are so many things i'm going to do just to spite Mom. BCN had a blood drive on Friday and i wanted to go, and she just kept asking me why. Uhh, to give blood? Duh? But of course i got shot down, and if you're under 18 you have to have permission, so that sucks.

UUUUGGGHHHH. i want to dye my hair. That's the one thing i can't do and hide from her. i can get my ears pierced and just wear my hair down all the time, and if i wanted i could get a tattoo and hide it easily, but i can't wear a hat or anything 24/7. Grr. And yes, i said, "i could get a tattoo." i recently decided i want one, but i don't know what or where. i saw at least 3 tattoo/body piercing places in Richmond but those were in the part you don't go to. >>

The story of my hellish trip to Virginia: So we went down to visit Virginia Commonwealth University. it's a 10 hour drive. Since no one likes my idiot father, and he drive like a maniac, it was not a happy ride. Monday was all driving. Tuesday we went to Jamestown, where they recreated some of the colonial shit but it sucked a lot. Then we went to Yorktown, which was Revolutionary War-era recreated shit. Wasn't as bad. mom expected them to take all day, but we spent maybe an hour at each one. Drove to Richmond and stayed there, even though we were'nt supposed to go tehre til Wednesday. We missed a turn, so we kept driving down one of the main streets, all the way into a rundown scary section. There were boarded up buildings and hardly anyone on the streets, and even though there were tons of fast food places and such, there were no cars in any of the parking lots. When people started listening to me since i had the fucking map anyway, we turned around and found the hotel. [The street we wanted was the only fucking one without a street sign.] Then we went back out to a fast food place called Hardee's. There was no one in the place, and all the people behind the counter were black. They were nice, but when we walked in the looks they gave us clearly said "You're not suppsoed to be here." ._. At that point i just flipped out. We went back to the hotel and i curled up in a big chair and wanted to cry. The place fucking scared me. it's not like i have a problem with cities; i've wandered around Boston and Paris and Nice, not knowing exactly where i was going and in the last two, not even knowing what people were saying, and i couldn't have cared less. But just sitting in the car and the hotel i desperately wanted to go home. i was in a bad mood all night. Wednesday morning Mom called the lady we were suppsoed to talk to at VCU and asked if we could reschedule for that day [instead of Thursday]. We went and talked to her and blah. She asked for my SAT scores & GPA, and said right away that i'd be accepted with no problem and i'd be in the honors program and get a $12k scholarship, minimum [Half a year's tuition]. We walked around and saw the school and it's all self-contained. Everything is in one area, except the medical campus is across the city, but the scool has a shuttle that runs back & forth every 15 minutes, so that's no problem. The honors dorm is an old hospital. The lady said i'd get my own room. That kinda takes the fun out of it, not having a roommate, but whatever. i kinda liked the school. And when i graduated i'd have a degree in Forensic Science, plus i'd be like, 1 clas away from a Chemistry minor and 2 from a Biology minor. Those classes could easily be taken over the summer somewhere. i haven't seen New Haven yet, but now i'm thinking i kinda want to go to VCU. i didn't before, since it's in Virginia, but i duno. The only thing is... i didnt see a supermarket or any little sotres or anything. o.O that's not goooooood.

Meh, i'm done ranting now. i forgot all the rest of what i was gona say. That, and 2 more episodes of Fullmetal Alchemist are finished. Yays.

That reminds me... i need to track down Cody. ._.

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