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So I saw Jesus this morning.

It was the weirdest thing. I'm chalking it up to being tired. But I was lying on my bed reading that fic I stayed up all night with, and out of the corner of my eye, I can see across the room and I swear I saw something that looked exactly like one of those Jesus statues. He was standing there with his left arm bent so his hand was at his hip (not on it though). The other arm was up and outstretched, palm out like you see in pictures, ready to take your hand. When I looked right at the spot where I saw him, all that was there was my backpack leaning up against some cardboard boxes. I told myself I was just crazy, but it didn't go away. =\ Every time I looked back at the computer screen, I wasn't seeing just a bunch of crap in my room, but that weird Jesus. I finally had to get up and toss a pillow over stuff. Luckily backpack!Jesus didn't move or talk to me, but it was really freaking weird.

Yeahhhh. So anyway, I was going to talk about this crap at some other point, but now it's semi-appropriate, I guess? I've decided I'm not really an atheist (which I stopped saying long ago, but whatever). It's not that I expressly do not believe in a god or higher power of some kind, it's just that I don't care. It doesn't bother me to think that there really isn't something "up there," but if there is, that doesn't really bother me.

I'll elaborate later, I think. I'm sleepy now and it won't make sense.
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Cuz it's bugging me right now... fuck. i look like im 18; i should've just gone to a convenience store or something. Now i'm gona be uptight and paranoid all day. Argh.

i hate my conscience anyway. i always feel awkward or guilty about stupid random things that don't bother anyone else and i usually wind up getting myself in trouble because of it. What the fuck. DX


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